From dirt to polished jewel

Tomorrow, or in any case, very soon, I will give a call to someone with whom I have not spoken in about 20 years or so for the purpose of sending some images back which will be of better use in their family than staying here. While I have no clue how it will go, I wondered nonetheless how I would explain where I am at on the path. The person was raised Roman Catholic.

Before I forget everything that came to mind, I am writing it down, well, some of it anyway.
God - or spirit or the void, the great nothingness or the creator...the great emptiness is everywhere and ...well, it just is...and everything and anything anywhere manifest is how it manifests, how it lives, no exception, no judgement, ever. There is only what is.

And within that, we, you and I included, have arisen, temporary, physically appearing sentient focal points of a particular awareness and consciousness.

Everything you do or don't do to ANYTHING or ANYONE, you have done to the whole, G*D, the divine body. There are no exceptions to that, whether you know it or not. It makes perfect sense to me that  a turning towards and recognition of "IT" delights it. Welcomed home and a feast for one who was lost. There is a weight of responsibility then in your actions and thoughts, towards self and anything you perceive outside of self...because, you have done it to G*d, self and everything.
Any kindness and compassion shown to it - soothes it.

What a journey it is, how flawed and limited one feels oneself to be....how maybe times lost, how many times unkind - with self and others.

The work is all internal.

Some do better than others - but it does not matter.

It only matters what you do and say to that big SELF and you.
Compassion arises with recognition and deeper levels of awareness, and sentience.

Reincarnation - not exactly the way I used to believe it would be....in a way, yes, but all that happens is that some"one" with a particular habit formation will manifest as form again, but not exactly you. In a way though....it is as if reconstituted, not really you, the human you know, just a similar constellation of habits and tendencies.
But this human ...this one today, here, only will be exactly as is - this one time, this once. Unique for all time - lived for G*d as a facet of G*d - never judged - piece of dirt, diamond in the rough, polished gemstone ... great experiments of Being. And yes, there is a path from the dirt to the polished jewel, yet there is no better or worse.

Anyway, just a rough sketch of where I am at with it.

Precious human incarnation?

So I built this really nice homestead which I love in Second Life. All my kid avatars loved it and the adults to do ...only it is not the kind of environment that lends itself to high fashion wear. So a couple of months ago, while noticing the attachment,  I felt that there was no longer a reason  to keep it, as the money spent there could be used to pay for chicken feed in RL :) Before relinquishing the parcel, I felt I needed to build the deep forest environment of "swamp-woman", a  parallel world self who got revealed in my the first ever Super-Beacon parallel world persona meet/greet and integrate. But in imagining the deep forest environment, I noticed something very unexpected: there was fear in my gut when I really thought and felt, when I visualized how I was gonna build it. Wasn't THAT interesting. Having felt quite connected to that persona, grateful to know her and understanding myself as well as having much more compassion for this unit here, I acknowledged the fear - and speculated that it was the fear of living in total aloneness for many many years as far as the company of humans was concerned. After all these years, and considering myself a loner and often preferring the company of animals to that of humans (with the exception of young children) - I was a bit surprised  nonetheless. With that came the realization that there is something priceless - or - as the Buddhists say "precious" - about this human incarnation.  To be more precise: the preciousness of and opportunity of conscious individuated awareness and possibility to awaken and voyage  - to traveling together in mutual recognition.
A couple of weeks later I was listening to the David Franco Show on gorebaggtv and they were reading of the chamber where a rebirth station involving a lake and white birds vs some white mansion was read - and that one would not want to choose the beautiful lake and white bird - because the teaching has not yet taken root there. The teaching - the teaching makes only sense when there is someone wanting or needing to be taught - as in other humans.

For a while now I have been in awe of  how close, principally, I am living in a chamber that is the lake and the white birds next  the mansions - more simply put - in the country where the teaching has taken hold. Buildings and people...and the work is possibly taken hold there....and then there is the chickengarden.

I love the combination ...and - I still want my own room, or my own little tiny house where I can be. Not sure how I am gonna ever make this machine do what the pond exercise is about. Often, it feels like almost constant mini-violations and I just don't have the energy to deal with it any more.

However, intending to build that deep forest environment and the reluctance to go there made it pretty clear that soemthing in me does NOT want to live like that again, or rather, in this life. It is, after all, a special kind of hell. And it is not that animals are not company. Animals feel, and do have awareness, and I conpletely agree with Anatole france: "Until you have loved an animal part of your Soul remains unawakened".

Higher Consciousness and Feeling ...after the separation out of the primordial oneness, self awareness and reintegration on a conscious level - that most animals don't have ...well, so is my current understanding. Only the human animal created tools with which to communicate like this - while others are going the path of developing intuition and psychic awareness. There is a communion, a listening and being heard that happens only with another human....and it liberates energy, which then becomes available for other things. It is almost like - until you have seen, or have been seen, by another human being, part of your soul remains unawakened. Going to live in the forest, even in Second Life, has that as a non-option. There is nothing wrong with solitude - however - part of your soul will remain unawakened if you only do that and going to live where the teaching has not taken hold is not something I choose.