Thursday, July 5, 2012

What I believe

Some of you may have heard of bardo training, the Tibetan Book of the Dead, journey through the afterlife. Maybe you have heard of heaven and hell and purgatory. In any case, if our time after death were that easy a ride, why prepare for it, or train or this need for guidance? So I hear folks saying: free now - after an animal dies. And I wonder - free? Really? Ya, for the momentary clear light?  And then - karmic tendencies  - your habits - take over. I do not know what is really gonna happen, I do not know if animals have an easier time. What makes you think the next parallel world is gonna be a better one for them?  But here is what I believe - and I am not talking about the emptiness unchanging reality - I am referring to being in any  manifest existence anywhere, including voyaging.

I believe, that when you love someone or something, I mean really love in the deepest heart of heart, when you see someone's beingness and there is love - that it will stay with them forever, even if it all goes back to Source, G-D, the Absolute, the Great Being.  Love is a substance.  Maybe there are other influences that stay with us - but really, there is a realm where only Love can be - and I believe that that Love stays with the being that is loved - and (should it reincarnate) it is a gift and a guide and it makes the "life" anywhere else in any other universe better for that being (without defining "better"). This kind of love can only happen if you have opened your heart, when there is seeing and acceptance and a connection. In this kind of love the only thing you want is for that being to be happy, free and being who they essentially are -  to the fullest they can be - in this world, in any of these quantum universes - in the universal mind - and to fulfill their purpose for being (t)here.

That is what I believe.

May 2011 -  Skye and Storm



Tuesday, July 3, 2012

Magnetic heart fields - dogs and humans

Dogs: “It came to me that every time I lose a dog, they take a piece of my heart with them. Yet, every new dog who comes into my life gifts me with a piece of their heart. If I live long enough, all the components of my heart will be dog, and I will become as generous and loving as they are.” …Unknown

Run Free Stormy - You are loved
March 2008 - July 3, 2012

Storm waiting by the chicken house May 2012
Born March 2008 -  fierce, loyal, smart & loving, he suddenly left us July 3, 2012
to be on his way to where he must go 
Run free and happy Storm - you are loved
Last evening (July 2, 2012) something special happened between me and this dog that lives where I do, little 4 year old rat terrier Storm - though most of the time I called him Stormy.
I had been working with him, a terrier true to his word, for a while, using Natural Dog Training techniques with really good results, including most recently him being close and starting to relax with the chicken babies. It went really well yesterday morning, he even turned towards me wanting to push after staring at them for a few moments, rather then charging the fence :) I dare say Natural Dog Training transformed our relationship. Dominance techniques, very briefly tried - seemed to have an adverse effect, and treats only went so far, and that was not very far in some situations. Anyway, I  put the chickens to bed ( = in coop :) last night and it was getting quite dark when I got back to the house, but not too dark for a walk, and of course, Storm was up to it ...loved it and I even had some of his favorite treat for pushing. I could barely see him come running up the driveway at full speed. In the last couple of days, because our other dog is on very restricted activity due to an ACL injury, I had made it a new habit to sit with both of them out on their porch at bedtime, and that is what I did last night too, after our little late walk, Shakti on my right, Storm on the left.

Back to last night, which turned out the last night he was to spend with us here on earth. I sat down with them and as before, I  had a couple of treats to start, then I stroked them and talked to them, telling them they are such good boys, that I love them. Skakti actually has a smiling kind of mouth. I recalled the image of the magnetic field of the human  heart that went around in some fb posts and imagined it to reach beyond and include both the dogs, and  it was a very loving field. I invited them to feel it. So this went on for a while and they relaxed, Storm too, and he eventually laid down and then - he put his head to rest on my thigh - something he had never done.  He sometimes lifted his head to look at me, get some scratching under his chin. We looking at each other, I told him I loved him and what a good boy he was. I still see him, faint barn light reflected in his eyes and these were such a sweet moments with a feeling I cannot describe. There was trust in there, relaxation, being home - being here-ness. A couple of times he musta heard something, sat up and had that deep low growl ... and I thought what a good little guy, watching out, all alert and ears up - but it was nothing and soon he laid down again, resting his head on my leg. He even got up at some point to greet Shakti  nose to nose, saying hi. It was so sweet.

We sat (I sat, they were lying down) there for a while and then I got up, told them goodnight,  all done, stay there - and they did.

The next morning, he went with me to the chicken house and for short a walk, then I left for the shelter soon after, did some cooking and then there were some plans for later, involving treats. But - while sniffing around in the backyard at lunchtime - something musta happened. He went over the rainbow bridge - so suddenly, so young.

Run free - I have seen you in such joy so many times, racing up the driveway or bouncing in anticipation - happy trails, good company and food and a mission and job to do - good voyaging through the macrodimensions. May you be often as happy as I have seen you here.

I am also reminded of  a thought that crossed my mind seeing him this morning - wanting to go outside the gate (were we used to go a lot in the spring). I had to call him into the garden a couple of times, before he came running. Something felt different though with him wanting to head out and I thought - "..as if he is on his way somewhere, and I could see his beingness as his own, with his own path.
So as a special treat, after feeding the chickens this morning, we went out there a bit before he happily headed back up the driveway with me.

I am grateful having worked with him, spending time with him and having found NDT as a method. It really worked well for us, when the other 2 methods did not when it came to resolving his charge in some situations. He was sooooooo happy to do stuff together, go to "school", hunting or running ahead on our walks - checking things out. He was actually a working dog. Such a smart, fierce, loyal, protective  little guy, loved seeing him bouncy in anticipation and I loved seeing him running as full speed, the hear the sound of his feet, ears flapping  - pure joy. And then - he took his rat terrier job very seriously and he was excellent at it. In fact, hunting rodents together was one of the best times.

Walking on the property  - it feels like a there is a big hole or empty space - he's missing - big spirit, big energy - and I noticed that even the chicken garden project feels now incomplete. From the very beginning, it was through the dogs, that I found my love and passion. They were always a part of it. It was never meant to be chickens instead of dogs - but dogs AND chickens. I am not sure where that leaves me. I don't understand the timing of his departure. -  just as things were getting into a working routine, the connection deeper and the path looking clear - and he did have an important job too with his rodent patrol. Still, on some level and for some reason, this was his time to go. Safe travel dear Stormy, and may you always find what you need and be happy being you.

And for you dog owners out there: when in doubt - take the extra time with your buddy. Their lives with us here are so short anyway - and then, there is that thing where you suddenly might find yourself without any time at all left. And take lots of pictures ..........

Happy traaaaaaaaaaaiillss to you - until we meet again
happy traaaiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiillllls to you - til we meet again

In his new house March 2012


The gang April 2011

April 2012

He ran at full speed trying to catch up :) - June 2012
Progress: fetching the ball and came to love this morning game

Surly not an early riser :) - especially in coolish weather
They LOVED this
Storm LOVED car rides too - here with Skye

He learned fast, loved it - and positive reward worked well for this kind of stuff
A truly delightful afternoon in May 2011
May 2011

He literally asked her to play :) - April 2011



Waiting by the chicken coop in April 2012

Being out there hunting with the crew on Easter weekend 2012  was a really good thing for him

Easter weekend - hunting while the crew worked for the chicken garden

Watchful
Here a video from the beginning pushing times with Storm - he learned to really love it and it was great to ground/diffuse charges in various situations.
While this video was make with Skye in mind - it does contain footage with them hunting/digging and playing together - they so loved both There are some fun clips from when Storm was a young pup:

Monday, July 2, 2012

A special Canon Rebel XT

Remember my last post - the one where I talk about my Canon Rebel?  So here is a little follow up story some might consider worth hearing. At the time I wrote that blog, I also shared it on facebook and had resolved to get a new camera from the cannon loyalty program - but then, then next day, a message on my desk  said: Call KD ASAP. And so a few coincidences, generosity and a feeling big heart had it that this special Canon EOS Rebel XT came my way to do its service at a school - just like that - to continue the job I am doing. It was quite miraculous - I was kinda a little speechless - and some points got put into the: "You can trust the universe" - bank. It was a special thing happening there, something that just does not happen every day like that. Thank you all involved.
I have had the Rebel XT for 10 days now, including a zoom lens (imagine that) - and have tried a few things with it. It must also be  an early model as I can even use my other camera's 2 GB card, nice - and  - I am still waiting for the supershot of the chickens :), not that I have not taken some nice pictures, but somehow they just don't look as cool as the shots Kathleen takes :)

Here is one of the images I took this morning - made into the Chicks & Weeds fb cover.


THANK YOU everyone and the Universe....and - I Love those chickens - but that is another story :)

In case you want to see a few more chicken pics, You'll find them in the Chicks and Weeds albums on facebook..

Here is a link to some very cool images by from a recent workshop by Katheen Dreier Esens Photography

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

EOL - Canon Rebel's last picture

Rebel's last view
Yesterday, June 12, 2012 the chickens were 3 weeks old and went into a small outdoor run for the first time. I was there with my flip and my camera, a Canon EOS digital Rebel. I have used it a lot since I got it in the spring of 2004. Lately I had noticed a few glitches and intermittent oddities and was thinking it might be due for a cleaning or checkup. Anyway - I was taking pictures of the chicks and then, without warning - no image in the viewer - you know how you check after taking a picture to see how it might have turned out. Nothing I could do - there was just darkness.
Everything seemed to be working except the shudder was not opening on "click".

Today I called the Canon customer service and spoke with a very nice man. And after listening and asking  about the camera, he says -> this camera is EOL. It is the original Rebel which came out in 2003. - Me ->  EOL? I don't know what you mean ---- Rep: End Of Life. It went EOL at the end of 2010 - what this means is that they will not be able to get any parts and the repair department will not even look at the camera, no matter what might be wrong with it - however simple or complicated. He then offered me the Canon loyalty option ....
I did ask a few more times, just in case - but no - it is EOL.
So ...a little shock for someone who grew up in a country at during a time appliances lasted a lifetime ...certainly had more than  7 years of accepted lifespan. Incredulous - they won't even look at it. My canon rebel is EOL.

It has served me well, it recorded literally tens of thousands of images and you are looking at the view it last saw - it's last imprint, before - for all practical purposes - before it died.
It spent it's life at a school - it saw a lot - though not a lot of far away landscapes.

There was no anger, just some trying this or that and the phone call, and gratitude - and  -  makes you wonder how alive "things" might be. Who are we to say some things are dead and some are alive. 
This camera was needed where it was used and it did well.
I will probably send it back to them as part of the canon loyalty program.

Thank you little Rebel - and your pictures were and are appreciated, some even made it into books and book covers.

There is something about the impermanence and uniqueness of every single thing and being that is amazing, touching - mind blowing - if you  really let it sink in. From that  place, unkindness is impossible - if only I were able to stay here longer and more often.

Monday, June 11, 2012

Prosperity Path, Chicken Gardening, Helping K9s

Ok, so these days I am very busy in the garden - it is planting season after all - and - I got 26 baby chickens who will soon need to get into an outdoor run which needs to be completed. It is soo much fun - and soo much work :) The working with videos: on the shelf, working with dogs - on the slow burner, but really, what I wanted to muse about is this prosperity path thing. The law of contagion - once in contact with it - always in contact with it. Law of attraction.  The more closely a model represents the 'real thing - the more connected it is to the real thing - but even more so - it becomes the thing itself. What was the word again - coupled - coupling factor. Ok - so in the prosperity path - you walk through a simulator - acting out something which - on some level - becomes so, becomes true, real, accomplished. It is not like the mental positive affirmation, it is the acted out affirmation. You walk through the simulation and get the achievements - such as true love - and here is the zinger; on some level, more than anything you will ever read - YOU HAVE ACTUALLY ACHIEVED IT. The implications of this kind of work/play/affirmation/acting out may actually be far more far reaching that I can presently imagine. Something about it feels right. I am looking forward to going through the simulations - done in the GODD gaming engine. Spooky action at a distance - SAAAD effect - as above -so below - as below - so above. So much to do. So now I want to decide on the 10 things I most want to find/achieve/accomplish in this way.

Slipstreaming into a universe where humans live in harmony with the natural world while prosperous where it counts and technologically advanced - is one of them - I hope there will be such an orb.

But this makes me wonder about something else; if there are infinite universes and you can not change any of them - only change worlds - then where or how does helping others come in - or the vow to relieve suffering - this is an endless task, isn't it - and for that matter - futile - and yet - the only thing that makes any sense....hm

Tuesday, May 15, 2012

Remembering this German Shepherd Husky

It has been a year  - May 15, 2011 - since I last saw her - disappearing into the trainer's house and I made this video: She got adopted 2 days later. There was a time when the deepest wish of my life was for her to have a happy dog life - from all I know - she is.

Saturday, March 24, 2012

The earth is a paradise - the humans just don't recognize it.

I remember with delight the singing and chirping of birds in the springtime. For several years the same wren seemed to find it's way back to our rooftop. I no longer live in Germany -  and my mother tells me that in the last 20 years, the presence of songbirds in northern Germany has steadily declined, dwindled, so much so in the last couple of years that ordinary concerned citizens are asking governmental institutions what is happening. Then today I read and article about a silent first day of spring in Massachusetts this year. Excellent article - but one that fills my heart with so much sadness - because I also think it is true: we, the western "civilization", the corporate greedy selfishness and all those doing nothing are in the process of giving the natural world its final blow -  and that our day of no water and famine will come. Some of the people I know are doing the best they can to steer the ship of humankind into a different direction, but the world/reality I presently live in is missing a lot of it's songbirds. In any world I live as an incarnated being - I wish to live with nature, not pixelized images of landscapes, artificial smells and molecularly composed food - though in the grand scheme of things - who knows.
As for the rest of  my time in this particular incarnation, I wonder what really is the best way to use it - with the means and strength I have left. In  a class I went to years ago they said that if you truly loved something - really loved essence to essence - you can take them with you, you keep them safe, their would never become extinct in all eternity - in this case they were talking about elephants.
In my case - there will be a German shepherd husky, dogs and birds ...and all kinds of plants and trees and rivers and streams and oceans and beaches and other animals.....much more so than artworks or man-made music of any kind, though I have heard some divine sounds. I am not against progress, I just believe it needs to be in harmony and respect for the beingness of other life forms.

All worlds are overlayed in one - the angelic, jealous god, human, hungry ghost, brute and hell - only we are destroying the human world - or rather ...the other worlds are taking over - soon they may not be a human world.  All those video games where you have to find a way to halt the evil - didn't come from nowhere. I wish there were games where they had real problems and people come up with real solutions which could be applied - that would be popular. - just a thought.

My father, a deeply kind man,  said: Die Erde ist ein Paradies, die Menschen erkennens nur nicht. The earth is a  paradise - the humans just don't recognize it.

I have seen incredibly beautiful creations made by humans - and I enjoy them. The people who make them may be living their dreams, their calling  - and maybe in their universe, nature, other peoples and animals are not being massacred by the same governments as in the world I live in. Nature is God's painting and sculptures, divine art with breathtaking beauty. Divine mind expresssed.

I guess I made my choice if there really is one: nature over human artworks. If all the beauty, the good and noble and high states of being and moral and consciousness produces a beauty but at the price of destroying the natural world, then no thank you ....I must find a way to shift. ...Unless I really did volunteer to come here to help - as in help awaken, help reduce suffering. Not to express my beautiful creations for the fun of it. Some say: LIVE FULLY, GIVE YOUR GREATEST GIFT TO THE WORLD - THAT'S COOL - AND - IF THERE IS AWAKE CONSCIOUSNESS - YOUR TRULY GREATEST GIFT WILL INCLUDE THE BEST FOR OTHERS TOO - including NATURE AND THE WORLD - AND ONCE YOU REALIZE THAT - MAYBE YOUR CHOICES WILL CHANGE.  oops - accidental caps lock there - I'll leave it in.. Maybe we just have different jobs - but I'd say: when there won't be any more water or food - and your child is dying, then how would you have chosen to spend your time? That is for each to answer and live with. Maybe you would have just wanted to have an even better time while you had it - maybe you would rather die knowing to did everything you could to make it possible for today's children to experience a full life.

 
In the end - a silent spring hurts deeply for the missing of divine sounds.
In future generations, they won't miss it - until they hear these wondrous sounds in special establishment with a resonance so deep in their being that they begin to be restless - looking for a soul they lost a long time ago. Indeed, many people today don't miss it or feel it - but what about their soul?
There is no soul in corporate capitalism and exploitation at all cost - and the old saying - absolute power corrupts absolutely - may  just be true.

I love birds.

Singdrossel - the way I remember it - only there were often more and other birds on the lawn.Their songs were incredible.




Here is the link to the article
as well as a reprint

Silent Spring Dawns Hot, Dry and Merciless

This week, turning the corner into the astronomical Spring, we have gone abruptly from warm winter to hot summer.  And I mean hot: it was 84 degrees Farenheit in western Massachusetts today, brightly sunny, with puffy white cumulus clouds against a brilliant blue sky, unobstructed by any leaves.  No shade.
Today reminded me of a wax model: beautiful but blank.  The façade of beauty, with the crucial vital spark missing.
When I went for a walk up the mountain early this morning, the woods were eerily silent.  I remembered mournfully the spring mornings of my childhood, where I would be awakened by the joyful singing of the dawn chorus of thousands of birds each happily greeting each other and the new day.
Reaching the top of the mountain having heard only the distant cry of a single phoebe, I stopped to sit on a rock and listen for a few minutes.  All I heard was the dim rushing of the traffic on the road far below me, and the drone of an airplane churning its way across the sky.
Coming down again, a few chipmunks hurried out of sight along the path, and I was keenly aware that there were no acorns underfoot, despite the oak trees towering overhead. Last fall was a terrible year for acorns, so all the animals that depend on them for overwintering must be very hungry now.  I know the bears are on the move, as one came and pulled down my bird feeder yesterday. I am thinking of bringing some sunflower seeds along on my walk tomorrow, to spread by the path as an offering of atonement.
While no one of us can shoulder personal responsibility for this tragedy of the commons, all of us who have benefited from the heedless extraction of oil and relentless destruction of the forests and the oceans must be aware of the extent to which we have brought this on ourselves, and taken the rest of the natural world along with us.
Will there come a day when the sun rises in the brilliant blue sky and looks down on a hot, dry planet, silent except for the hardiest of species, like the cockroaches and the ants, who survived previous major extinction events, and will once again continue about their business single-mindedly, able to wait out the eons while life reboots and resurges again anew?
***
This weekend I had the chance to see the new documentary film by Pamela Yates, Granito: How to Nail a Dictator, which powerfully makes the point that the genocide in Guatemala was about land rights, with U.S.-backed military juntas working for the landowners and the corporations to clear the land of indigenous people and peasants so that big internationally funded projects like dams and mines could proceed unobstructed.
Two hundred thousand people, mostly indigenous Mayans, were massacred in the 1970s and 1980s in the service of American-fueled greed, in Guatemala alone.
It strikes me that this story is repeating now—if indeed it ever stopped—as we continue to fight over resources and land on our finite planet.
It is happening now in the forests of Indonesia, where on the island of Sumatra plantations the size of the United Kingdom, the size of Belgium—unimaginably huge tracts of magnificent rain forest with some of the richest stores of biodiversity on the planet—are being bulldozed and replanted with palms to feed international demand for palm oil.
The indigenous people who made the forest their home for millennia are being mercilessly deprived of their natural habitat just as surely as the rest of the flora and fauna there.
The loss of biodiversity, including the loss of ancient indigenous human cultures, is a tragedy that cannot be quantified.  What is being lost is priceless.
It’s all very sad, you may say, but all very far away, too.
But our summer temperatures in March have everything to do with the destruction of the last remaining old-growth forests in Indonesia, in Africa, in South America, in Canada.
Once the forest is gone, the topsoil will begin to erode.
Desert will prowl the borders of what used to be forest.
When, as in the Indonesian palm oil plantations, diverse ecosystems are replaced with monocultures, those monocultures more vulnerable to pest and climate disruption.
And then?
***
Lately I have been having recurring waking nightmares about food shortages.  Already I am concerned, as a backyard gardener, that these hot, dry spring days will not provide the proper growing conditions for spring crops like peas and lettuce.
Imagine conditions like these being replicated across the globe.
Imagine a growing season where all over the planet we lurched from heat and drought to torrential rains and tornadoes.
In the US we have become accustomed to thinking of food insecurity as something that happens in other parts of the world.
Famine stalks Asia and Africa.  It doesn’t come near us.
This year, as I see how the natural world around me is struggling to provide for the chipmunks, the bear and the turkeys; as I greet the arrival of the few straggling migrant birds who have managed to run the gauntlet of a landscape devastated by chemical warfare and industrial agriculture; as I gaze out at the bare trees shimmering in the unnatural midday heat, I know in my heart that it is only a matter of time before our turn comes.
Today it is the indigenous people of Indonesia who are going down with their forests.
It is the desert people of North Africa who are starving, and the teeming masses of Asia who are fleeing the floods of torrential rains.
We in the huge, pampered gated communities of North America and Europe will be insulated from these shocks for much longer than those on the outside.
But our time will come.
And when it comes, it will be with the full force of every violent futuristic film we’ve ever dreamed up.
Waterworld, anyone?  Mad Max?
***
Usually I try to stay positive and keep the flame of hope burning brightly, a beacon for myself and for others.
But today this stark, in-your-face, first-day-of-spring evidence of the coming train wreck of climate change has guttered my hope.
Time is running short for us, just as it is for the bears and the birds and the native peoples of the forest.
We are coming inexorably into Rachel Carson’s Silent Spring.

Friday, February 3, 2012

Beauty, pain, dogs, hearts & judgement

FEBRUARY 2012
The beauty and pain on this planet is unspeakable - dogs have good hearts. - For all the dog lovers: If the dog does not judge - why do you?

Monday, January 9, 2012

She Let Go



She Let Go

“She let go. Without a thought or a word, she let go.
She let go of fear. She let go of the judgments.
She let go of the confluence of opinions swarming
around her head.
She let go of the committee of indecision within her.
She let go of all the ‘right’ reasons. Wholly and completely,
without hesitation or worry, she just let go.
She didn’t ask anyone for advice. She didn’t read a
book on how to let go... She didn’t search the scriptures.
She just let go.

She let go of all of the memories that held her back.
She let go of all of the anxiety that kept her from moving forward.
She let go of the planning and all of the calculations about how to do it just right.

She didn’t promise to let go.
She didn’t journal about it.
She didn’t write the projected date in her day-timer.
She made no public announcement and put no ad in the paper.
She didn’t check the weather report or read her daily horoscope.
She just let go.

She didn’t analyse whether she should let go.
She didn’t call her friends to discuss the matter.
She didn’t do a five-step Spiritual
Mind Treatment.
he didn’t call the prayer line.
She didn’t utter one word. She just let go.

No one was around when it happened.
There was no applause or congratulations.
No one thanked her or praised her.
No one noticed a thing.
Like a leaf falling from a tree, she just let go.

There was no effort. There was no struggle.
It wasn’t good and it wasn’t bad.
It was what it was, and it is just that.
In the space of letting go, she let it all be.
A small smile came over her face.
A light breeze blew through her.
And the sun and the moon shone forevermore.”

The author of this poem is unclear.  A few sites list Ernest Holmes as the author, another Jennifer Eckert Bernau and still another Rev. Safire Rose.


Thank you Mukara for this post today

Tuesday, January 3, 2012

Where words fail

After 25 years - reunited
JANUARY 2012 - we've underestimated infants and toddlers and children - all sentient beings, even plants ...and in the end, we'll realize that that which is - is conscious in everything ..rocks, dna, atoms - everything - watch it till the end (my recommendation, then maybe watch it again) and it is there where you cry of sorrow and joy at the same time, you laugh and cry at the same time, where you dance and crumble, know and don't know, where it matters and insignificance is obvious ..there is no power or individual will or desire - where words fail
Shirley and Jenny - reunited after 25 years - Click to watch